Sunday, October 12, 2008

A sister is gained

The apartment i lived in was a hotel that had a section for living in residents. So there was full staff someone to cook for me if i didn't feel like going out or cooking. There was a maid to clean for me thank god because I had given up on cleaning I always seemed to make a bigger mess then when I had started out. There was also the manager for the residents, I befriended all the staff, but more so the manager.
The night I returned to Singapore from New York. I ran for my apartment and locked myself in with all the files I had brought with me. I spent three days going over each and everyone one of those files some more then once. They had photos for my children and grand children the ghosts of my past played around me for those three days. On the fourth day a knock came at my door I ignored it at first but the person would not give up and kept knocking. I gave up an answered the door. It was the manager she had come to check on me to make sure I was okay. I was friends with her and it was normal for her to stop by and come in and have a cup of tea with me but I couldn't let her in today because of all the files that were strewn about my apartment.

"Elphaba are you okay? I saw you return three days ago but i haven't heard from you or seen you in those three day."

"Oh I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for you to worry I guess my friends death has affected me more then I thought, but don't worry I'm going out tonight for dinner later."

" Oh! I'm so sorry I didn't know that you had lost someone..... Is there a restaurant I can make a reservation for you ? "

"ah just my normal one thank you."

"Okay, is there anything else I can do for you? "

I thought that over for a second. I needed the cleaning staff soon but I also wanted something else.

"Yes, one more thing I need to find a house ...or land something that I can buy and own as my own."

" Oh, I can help you with that. I sell restate as a side business. If that's all I'll go and make that call to get you a reservation."

"It is but if your not busy tonight why don't you join me tonight for dinner. I would love to talk to you about what is available around here."

"Oh I would love to but my husband Lee can't cook to save his life.'

"By all means bring him along my treat."

"He will like that. I have told him about you and he has been wanting to meet you for ages." She beam a smile and turned to leave. Dinner that night changed my relationship with G.G that night.

She became like a sister to me. She put up with me and my pickyness in property very well. More agents dropped me after about a month of me saying no to everything they would show me, but not G.G she just kept bring me new houses,condo,and lots for sell. I be came close with G.G and her husband. There were many dinners and many late nights going over images of property's. G.G learned quick that price was no matter to me and that what I wanted was a large amount of land to build my own house. It took over three years but G.G finally found something that I wanted. There was a business man that had bought up the land by the Upper Pierce Reservoir. The man wanted to sell the land and build houses but I bought all his plots and then found my own builder. I had designed the house myself it was big it could house a family of ten and the people would hardly have to see one another if they didn't want to. It was framed in the farm house style the beams were exposed and everything was open. I got as much natural light as I could get. The view was also amazing it was of the reservoir. It took nine months to build I moved in the day if was done and had a party the next night as a house warming. I had made many friends through G.G.

G.G had lost her job as the manager because she focused so much on helping me. I felt so bad and because I didn't want to lose the closeness I had formed with her. I offered her a place to live in my house. It was big enough for her and Lee to live even if they wanted to start a family, she and Lee thankfully agreed and moved in the same day I did. The party ended and G.G and I started to clean up. (with G.G's help I didn't make the mess and worse.) We were doing dished and talking about random things I was drying and she was washing. There was a pause in the conversation and G.G asked about Edward.

"Elphaba, Who's Edward?" asked G.G in a innocent voice.

I dropped the dish in my hand. (I had never talked about my past and G.G and Lee seemed to understand that I didn't like to talk my past. ) Neither of us moved to clean up the broken dish "Where did you hear that name?" my voice was like ice. I hadn't meant to sound so mean but I couldn't help it.

G.G was shocked at my tone as well but she answered my question."I don't really know.. You know how I paint well the other day I painted a painting with you and this man in it.. I only know his name, because you two were signing a marriage certificate. The strangest thing about the painting is the date... It was 2010 and there was also another woman in it but her face wasn't clear. "

I didn't say anything at first but I had to ask I wanted the conclusion that my head had come up with to be wrong. "Have you ever had something like this ever happen before?"

"Only a few times in the past the first time I can remember. The First time was a painting of Lee before I even meet him, also some dreams that have came true.. I had a dream about you coming to Singapore and that there was something about you that makes you unlike other people."

"Have you ever told Lee about these dreams or paintings?"

"Yes, but he just thinks that they are like other people... but what I have been doing is different I don't use cards or a crystal ball or anything like that. I'm painting things and seeing things in dreams! I spent some time researching people here in Singapore but most of them I found to be fakes.To tell the truth its kind of scary being able to see stuff like this.. but back to this Edward guy ! Who is he because I know you. You only take lovers you never have feelings for them and never fall in love with them."

(I started taking lovers about a year and a half before this moment.. hey ! I'm only human a girl has needs.) It was do or die I had to tell G.G who Edward was and what I was or lie to her and my gut was telling me that if I lied to her nothing good would come of it. "Edward is my husband, We have been married about."I stopped to think how long had Edward and I been married? "We have been married about 185 years and he disappered in 1930 on New Years day." I stopped and waited for her to say something. To run away screaming or something like that but she didn't.

"How old are you really? You only look 25 but the way you acts is nothing like a 25 year old."

"I haven't been 25 for a very very long time.. I'm about 215 years old give or take a few years. Everything gets hazy after the first 100 years or so. "

" How is that possible !" she asked exasperated

"Ummm thats kind of hard to explain because we don't really know but here I'll show you! " I reached down a grabbed a sliver of the broken plate and slashed it down my arm. A line of red blood gushed out I hit a vane.

G.G let out a sweek of shock and reached for a towel and she was saying something about how much a fool i was and that we had to get me to a hospitle. I told her to be quite and to watch.
I closed my eyes and focused I let my energy go out and heal my cut from the inside out. (The feeling of a cut being heal is something strange its tingles and tickles all at the same time.)It only took a second and the cut was healed completly all that was left was a line blood. "Thats how I an heal myself, I can also heal others if need be. It also why I have live so long my body won't let me die. Edward is some what the same but it's his blood that heals and not energy. He is about 10 year older then me but you would never know it, and before you ask as I said before he dissapired in 1930 we were attacked by some men and the best I can figuer is that they found a way to kill him or they still have him somewere alive still because unlike me he is very hard to kill. To tell the truth the damage I have done to him is enough to kill a normal person but not him.But becuase you just said something about us in a painting is starting to give me more hope that he is still out there somewere.

"Hold on what do you mean that you can do damege that would kill a normal person ? "

"Oh I can also control fire. " I snapped my fingers and a small flame came to life between my fingers. "Don't worry about it that is something I learned long ago to control."

G.G looked calm"okay I can take all of this but I dont know about Lee I have know idea what he is going to say about it. "

"Let me worry about him ."

"okay then let finish cleaning up and get to bed i'm beat dead."

We finished cleaning like nothing had happend. Later in the week Lee was looking for a light for his cigarett and he couldn't find one I snapped my fingers and lent him one. He freaked out of and actually feighted when he was brought around it took sometime for G.G and I to stop him from calling me a witch and such (stuff i had heard before in my life) but we finally got him calm and used to the idea that I was majorly different. G.G info about Edward gave me a hope that had been there but it was now stronger. I started to find the best detectives in the world and put them on the search for Edward .....They failed but found something much much more in there search.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Learning not to Back Down

The Michaels law firm had been around for about 150 years. It was started by James Michaels, a close friend of mine. When he started the law firm Edward and I were happy to have a lawyer we could trust and that would keep out secret. after James came Marshall then John I love all three of these men, they were very dear friends. So when John die there was no ifs and or buts about it I was going to that wake and funeral. I also had to meet John's son one of the things that we asked of our lawyers is that no one know that we were there clients. This meant that there family's would ever meet us and we would never meet them. When one man would retire or die Edward and I would go in and introduce ourselves and tell the new man the rules.
When I meet John's son I knew he was nothing like his father. There was a coldness in his eyes that would fit a shark. I introduced myself to him at the wake and set up a meeting with him for two weeks later.
The meeting was horrid. I walked in to his office and took a seat and waited for him to talk by know he would have read the files on me and my life and the past lives I had. I waited for the shock and anger that had come with his predictors. There was none of that, just a coldness in him that slightly scared me. He asked a few questions about what I had been doing with myself since Edwards death. I told him that I had just been traveling and nothing more. That seemed to anger him,because I wasn't giving him the details he wanted for some reason. My life isn't a book for someone like him to open and read when ever they want. Even John had enough respect for me not to ask questions this man was asking.

"Why are you wanting all these answers? I asked

" I want to make sure I have the right person and so far I'm thinking that I do."

"What?"

"Mrs. St.James I have to tell you two men came in here the other day asking about you. They wanted a certain back files on you and they where offering a very nice price for it and any other information I could give and let me tell you there offer was very compelling. Can you meet that offer Mrs. St.James?"

I felt the old flame roar back to in me anger flooded me. Who was this ass hole to blackmail me? knew who the men where that came asking about me. They had to be the same ones that has came for Edward and I and if they were asking for my files they wanted to know where I was hiding out. They wanted me. I wasn't going to give him any money and I had a feeling that if I payed him off he would still sell me out. This man had to die and I had to bee the one who killed him. I stood out of anger and in a huff I made it look like I was going to walk out I made it to the door and turned the lock.

"You know Mr. Micheals it wasn't the smartest thing to try and blackmail me. Because I can't let you out of this room alive." He had started to laugh a rich full laugh he thinking that I was joking.God how wrong he was, the laugh died when a flame sparked to life.

He eyed the flame in my hand "What kind of freak are you!?" he yelled as he backed away from me but was stopped by the window. My eyes never left his face, there was shock,fear and a searching. He was looking for the gun that was kept in the office. I had to act fast. Flames had encircled both of my hand now waiting for the right moment. He found the gun he was looking for it was strapped to the underside of the desktop, he lunged and I released the flames. Out of each hand came a line of fire they encircled him from head to toe. Hes screams filled the room but they didn't last long only about 30 seconds( I had learned this attack ages ago while edward and I where both learning our powers and there extent.)
It was over I stopped the flames and staggered to a chair and looked around the office. There was nothing of the man but dust. I closed my eyes then and thought about what I just did. I don't know how long I set there but it was dark when I looked up again and started to get to work. I had to cover this up as much as I could I opened the windows hoping the wind would help remove the ashes. I then went down to my car and retrieved the bags I had brought. When I entered the room again I went to a hidden safe and opened it. Out spilled some files, in here were every birth,death,will and document that Edward and I had ever used along with the proof that we once had a family. The names of my children and great children flashed by. I kept a mental list of all the names I saw. Almost every file was accounted for there where a few missing including the Cullen file it was the one I had to have. I tore apart that office like a mad woman looking for that file. I found the others but not the Cullen one I set down in the chair crying and thinking about how and why would someone still be after me. "They had my husband already why me and why that file.It was all old information in it and only one person could guess why it would be important and that's Edward." My head shot up then. That was it! Edward he had to be alive out there somewhere.Only he would come for that file. It was the last life we had lived together. That thought gave me hope that just maybe he was still alive somewhere out there waiting for me. I was about to give up for the search for the Cullen file when I saw brief case out of the corner of my eye it was under the couch and I dived for it praying that the file hadn't been given to the strange men.When I opened it there was the file I was looking for, quickly I packed it away and carried the bags down to the waiting car, then went back to the office for one more look around.
I got lucky the wind seemed to be on my side it had started to blow in from the south and as it came in and moved on it took the ashes away with it. The room was a mess it looked like there had been a fight or something. I didn't care every evidence that I had even been there was gone I turned from the room and never looked back. I made it to the car and then back to my hotel room. It was only 8:30 so I call the airport and bought a ticket for the next flight to L.A. I checked out and made it to the airport on time.From L.A I took my privet plane to home to Singapore. I never cried on any of the flights or even on the car ride back to my apartment, but as soon as the door closed behind me in my apartment I broke down. I had never killed a man before and I had just done so in the most violent way I knew how. I was alone and I wanted my husband badly I wanted him there with me.To hold me, to protect me and to tell me everything was going to be okay and that we would get past this together.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

I Can Never End so This Isn't the Ending

Have you ever lost something you loved a lot..if you have take that pain and times it by a million and then you will be able to know what I was feeling. If you have been lucky enough not to ever lost something or someone like that then I applaud you may you never have to, but you need to under stand how I was feeling I wanted to die.
I was waiting for years for news that Edward wasn't really dead to come. That news never came and when my mind realized that nothing was ever coming. I wanted to break everything in sight and I tried to break it all. I broke everything in the house and when that wasn't enough to satisfy me, I burnt down the house and left Italy for good.
I had no plan I just went to the nearest airport and picked a city. As I was waiting for the plane I over heard two men talking about Mussolini and his siding with Hitler in the fighting. This confused me I had know idea who this man was. To tell the truth I didn't really even know what year it was. I faintly remember the change of the year, but to what year I wasn't sure. I went to the nearest news stand and bought a newspaper and started to read it. There wasn't much helpful information in it. You could tell that it was a government supported paper and that key details were missing. The only thing that it helped me with was the date, it was June 12th 1940.
I finally looked looked around me at the people in the airport and saw that there were more then you would expect. It looked like those who could where catching flights out of Italy. I later found out that I was on the last flight out of Italy to Paris. In Paris I was able to find out what had been happening. While I was in my confinement Hitler had came to power in Germany in the 30's and he was now trying to take over eastern Europe and he was winning. I knew what was to come I had seen it happen before and I knew I need to get back to the US. Because it would be hard to hide in a war torn country. I found a boat to the US (no planes where flying overseas anymore.) I went straight to my lawyer and set up a small house and name in Washington D.C. I wanted to know what was happening with this war over seas.
The US at the time hadn't entered the fighting officially so there wasn't much information that was public so I got a job as a secretary to for some man that was in the military and close to the president. For two years I labored at this horrid job waiting for something to happen that would make the US get into the fighting and get me in the fighting. I wanted to fight! I wanted to help to do something this time. I had seen so many wars happen and never fought in any of them, and this one I wanted in on the main action. It happened finally Dec 7th 1942 Pearl Harbor was bombed and the President put the US in the war.
I went to the man I was working for and asked him to be put in one of the hospitals that would be close to the front lines. At first he didn't want to and it took me three days to get him to do it. So I went I was made a nurse's assistant, I soon became a doctors assistant every doctor wanted to work with me. They thought I was a good luck charm because every person that they would work on would live even with cases that should have died. I supported that rumor that I was a good luck charm I didn't want them to take a closer look at what I was or what I was doing.
It wasn't hard to cover my tracks I worked at night when everyone was sleeping. I would give the patient a high dose of morphine just to make sure that they wouldn't wake up and then heal the wounds. I volunteered for every mission that needed a doctor and assistant, I was caught only once in healing someone. A young doctor who was new to the field hospital and he had volunteered for a mission with me. We were to traveled with a group of English soldiers to Sword beach. We where put on the farthest boat out in the sea it was to be the last one to land because the others had to fight. When the beach was taken we came ashore and went to work. There was a small patch of German gunners that had been in hiding and when my boat made land fall they opened fire. I was hit once by a few bullets but it was nothing much. I healed my wounds just enough so I could work on the others that where still living.
The morphine ran out fast so I had to work without it this time.The ones I healed got the idea of what I was doing, but most were in so much pain that almost none of them remembered.
The young doctor I had came with was hit and he stupidly remembered. When we got back to our main hospital he spread the word that I was some kind of witch that healed others. Its a shame that he did that, because he was a good doctor,but I had to protect myself. I called my old boss and told him what was going on and the young doctor was discharged.
That was close to the end of the war then, it soon ended and I went back to the US. I was awarded some medals for my madness. The war was a great distraction it was just what I had needed.I had put my life in danger and lived. I took this a sign that I needed to start to live a real life again. So I did.I killed off this heroine I had made up and picked back up my real name Elphaba St.James and lived.
I used my money to travel the US for a few years while Europe re-built. I bought land and houses when I found a city or state I liked. When Europe was safe again I traveled there along with Asia I bought houses and land when I found a nice place. Years passed and I didn't really care I made a few friends in my travels they would help me pick out new places to go and see.
One woman named Jane told me to travel around a place called Singapore.I went and fell in love with the little city.I rented an apartment started to look for land to build my own house.It was 1975 when I rented the little apartment it was also the year my lawyer John died. He was 85... another person I had out lived. I went back to the US for the funeral and to meet his son who was now my lawyer. My account had always been in his family and it was time for him to meet me and get the ground rules. This man was nothing like his father he was a snake in the grass that had no problem biting me.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

The End of the Middle

When our last grandchild died Edward developed the ability to read minds and even speak into others minds, but what came with this power came another he started to get flashes of things that were to come. This helped us greatly we were wealthy already because of the practices,but the flashed Edward would get told us where to invest our money. Like steel,oil,timber and when to take out money out of investments like longhorn cattle. So we never had to worry about money ever and that you could say was our down fall. You see neither of us ever came across anyone with powers before like us.... we started to believe that we maybe the only ones maybe not in the world but in the US yes. ... looking back we were so stupid and blind. It was the 1929 when we would ever meet someone with powers.

We had started to fall in to a pattern Edward and I would live in London for 5 or 10 year depending on how fast people would start to talk Then we would fake our deaths and live in some foreign country for two or three year just long enough for people to forget what we looked like. After that we would move to New York City and do the same thing that we had done in London. It is kind of sad to say we became old pros at the dying act it was nothing to get fake certificates made. Also we went out in style that was me Edward was always good for a mugging gone wrong or something like that but I was the one who planned all the big whoha ones that made the news papers and radio stations and also with mine way of dying we would have to in hiding longer. I did that because I liked when it was just the two of us not having to worry about what to do next of if we should be in the public eye or not. We stayed out of the public eye as much as we could, but sometime it would just happen Edward and I would become the toast the season. I mean don't get me wrong we liked it we had grown up in that world. The one of gilts and glamor of the rich and wealthy. But every once in a while I would want to be seen and in 1920 I wanted to be seen. So we moved to New York and became the toast of the town. Edward had donated a large amount of money to some hospital and he had also become to known for not charging people who could not afford to pay for treatment thus making him very popular with the lower classes. That was always something that caught the eye of the local government and that's all it took it took us five to reach the top of the social market and another five to enjoy it.

It was 1929 and we were throwing the New Years Eve party. It was the one everyone came to the heads of the local government and the bigwigs in business. It was also the night that we where planning on "dying" when our boat sank after we left the party for a vacation. The building that we lived in we owned we had owned it since the early 1900's so we had the whole thing to ourselves most of the time. Edward and I had two floors to ourselves and the other floors where rented out to other people of out standing. It was close to midnight and we were to make a small speech before the stroke of 12. When it came time we said our goodbye for the months we would be gone and so on even though we didn't plan on returning for a very long time. We knew every person that was at the party and the door was watch very close so no newspaper people or something like that could get in so it shocked the hell out of me and Edward when a unknown man said something at the end of our speech he shouted.

"So how long with it take for your boat to sink and for your clone to reaper in London or even New York again?"

That made everyone gasp it bad luck to say those kind of things before someone left on a boat. That isn't want made us stop it was the fact that he knew we would reaper sometime in London.It freaked us out had someone been watching us that close.... had our lawyer talked? We didn't know and we didn't want to find out. Edward acted fast he played the protective husband and I played the scared wife. The signal was given to have the man thrown. He was caught and taken out with out putting up a fight and I fainted. Not because I was scared but because Edward had wanted me to. We had to get out of there and fast because if someone had talked who knew what was on the way and we didn't want to be there when the story came out. I was taken to the bed room on the second floor it was the one that people thought we lived on. As soon as the door closed with Edward telling people I would be find. I sprang out of the bed and ran for the the hidden door that lead to the back stair case that lead to the first floor. The floor where we kept everything that we didn't want the others to see. Pictures of our sons and the rest of our family and of course us.Looking that same in every single picture and painting that had been done.

"Damn it ! I knew we shouldn't have stayed I told you I had a bad feeling about staying here much longer. " Edward exclaimed

" Edward you can't blame me for this... I told you we could have left around Christmas if you wanted to but you didn't you just said to wait and leave at new years."

"No your right I'm sorry its not just your fault its mine also. But it is clear we have stayed to long we are going to have to stay in hiding longer then we thought.Damn it why didn't I see that man in a flash or something?"

"I don't know how do you think he found us? I know that some of the older ones have thought we looked like someone they once knew but we always just told them that we had family back in England. That seemed to always work they wouldn't never say anything about it again. "I had pulled Edward to me now and hugged him I could since he was coming up with a plan that I wasn't going to like
"What if it didn't work as well as we thought and someone started to looking to our family in England and when they found nothing but old clippings of people who looked like us that had died and put the two and two together."

"Oh god , you don't think .... " I didn't get that rest of my words out before someone pounded on the front door that lead to that main hallway. A man spoke with a booming voice

"Mr.Cullen we would like to speak with you and you lovely wife."
We stood stock still no one knew the way to get up to the top floor using the main hallway other then Edward and I. We didn't speak either we didn't have to Edward linked our mind faster then ever before because I wasn't trying to keep him out like the other times we linked our minds. "Elphie you have to get out of here. Take the back stairs and get in the car and head for the boat, I will meet you there when I'm done with these men." "NO! I'm not leaving you if they are here to do us harm I can defined myself just as good as you can." "Elphaba these men aren't human they have powers reach out and feel there engery can't you since it in them?" I looked at him in shock these men had powers ?! Impossible we had gone almost 200 years and never once meet anyone else that had any kind of powers and now all the sudden there where two men standing out side our door that wanted to talk to us. I reached out like Edward had said and felt around I could feel the energy that leeked off these men. They where strong and they were not here just to talk to us. "No, I'm not leaving you Edward I can feel there power and it isn't good!"
"Elphie dear don't make me hurt you and carry you out of here. It wouldn't help us any... Elphie I have been planing for something like this to happen for years.Everything will be fine you just have to get out of here safely."
he kissed me then. This one wasn't a normal kiss in it I knew something would go wrong and he knew the something."Will you please be fast and get out of here, If I don't make it to the boat by one leave and head for the airport and take the first flight to London then move on to Rome I will meet you there. Ok ?
" Yes, fine."
We kissed knowing was to be our last one for a long time.
"I love you"
he said
"I love you more then you know"
I said right back he just laughed a small silent laught and tapped my head " I know. "

We broke apart then and I hurried I grabbed a small bag and stated trowing things in it. Not clothes or and thing like that but the photos as many as I could carry.Our conversation didn't take that long maybe all of two minutes maybe, but it was just long enough for the men to start pounding on the door again " Listen we know your in there and we know what you are. Please don't make us back down the door." They had manners it was funny then and it still kind of is even thought I know what they were about to do." If you would please be quiet my wife is resting your people gave her a fright down below." Edward had walked to the door he was waiting for me to finish. I was silent at collecting my things because like Edward I had planned for something like this to happen. My bag was just the right size to get all 50 or so of the small photos and painting and the small stack of cash I had hidden. I shot him one last loving glance before I went down the stairs. I didn't listen to what they were saying all I knew is that Edward had let the men in. The car was there waiting like he had said it would be I got in and went to the piars and waited one o'clock came and went I stayed tell two in the morning before I would give up and head for the airport. Once there I found a plane that left at 5am I payed someone off and got the plane in the air by three am. When I landed in London I made my way to Rome like he had said and waited there in a old house we had been given that was up high in the rolling hills or Italy when we married. I waited for a very very long time. I was in Rome by myself for 10 years... I know what your thinking why did I wait that long ? Well because time is nothing to the either of us and 10 years is only like an hour to me. I had been in Rome maybe a week when the New York times finally reached me a week late. The head line wasn't of some goof tidings or anything like that it was one of disaster on 4th avenue.

HUNDRED DEAD IN BURNING BUILDING ACCIDENT
on the morning of January one at 2 in the morning a fire started in the top floor of the St.James apartments. The cause of the fire is still unknown and at this time the death toll is at a hundred people. One witness said that the fire started in the kitchens and that it spread very fast.The owners of the building a Dr.George Cullen and his wife Emilia are sadly among the dead. Dr. Cullen was a key member of the........

I stopped reading after that. I had know something was wrong with those mean when I left but I didn't listen to my gut like I should have. I had called our lawyer and to see if anything had to be done and nothing did. The story in the paper made Edward and I look dead.. but I was the one still alive.
"Elphaba" said my lawyer " He made arrangements in case something like this ever happened. Every house has been payed off for a long time so you have no worry there. Also all of your bank accounts have been changed as well you are the primary benefactor on them. It's the same with the Cullen estate.. You are living under your real name are you not? "

"Yes, Elphaba St.James" I said in a dead voice

" Then in a few days or weeks I'm not sure how fast the post is there but you will be getting a letter from me and telling you what happened. It's all formality that have to be done." John stopped talking then and waited for me to say something but I didn't " Elphaba you have to live a happy life.."

"I know it just doesn't mean I have to like it. Is there anything else you need from me John?"

"Just to brush up on your Italian and call me when you get the letter I'm sending you."

"Why? Am I going to have to convince someone that I'm Italian or something? "

"You might I'm not sure yet, but it can never hurt can it?"

I hung up then not even bothering to say goodbye. My husband was dead he was gone from my life and all I felt like doing was jumping off the nearest cliff. Don't get me wrong I spent hours on a ledge talking myself in and out of taking that one step that would kill me. But I never did I guess I was to much of a coward to take that step because what if... what if I was wrong and John was wrong what if Edward was still alive out there somewhere waiting tell he could get away for those evil men that may have just kidnapped him and not really killed him. I got the letter telling that I was now the owner of so much land in different parts of the world and the US and a very large amount of money. I never had to speak to anyone about the settlement or anything. So I set in Rome talking myself off a ledge everyday for ten year before my mine seemed to snap awake again.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

The Middle

Both of my son's were 52 when they died that was the normal age for a person to die at their wifes soon followed after them. I was lost with grift I shut myself in a room for three days with nothing but a few candles to see by. I had alway loved to play tricks with fire I never feared being brunt because I could heal small burns. My children and grand children loved seeing the tricks I could do and it was on that that last night of my confinement did I find myself playing with the fire once again . You know when you put your hand over a flame how it will hardly move, but you can only hold it there tell it starts to burn you and you have to take your hand away.
Well I was finding that I didn't have to take my hand away and that the fire was draw up and never burning me. in my head I wished the flame would split and forming a ring around my hand. Before I knew it the fire had done what I was wishing I was shock this could be normal not that I was normal to begin with,but still this wasn't right. I pulled my hand away fast thinking that I would be able to pull out of the fire, but It followed my hand like some animal.
I stared at the fire in amazement it was fantastic I clinched my hand in to a fist and the fire swam around it in circling it. I know I shouldn't have been happy about this but I was elated I could help, but think what I could do now with this. Like did I have to have a live flame at first or could I just spark one to life on its own.
I didn't hear anyone banging on the door or the threats to knock the door the down.I was in my own little world and what brought me slamming in to the real world was Edward and our grandson John breaking my door down. They scared me and as a reflex I threw my hands up to protect myself, but at the same time the fire released itself and went fly and hit Edward across the face. He fell to the floor clutching his face and I knew then that I would have to learn how to control this new power. I rusted over to him and knelt next to him and pulled his hands away from his face, but his own ability was taking affect and healing his burnt flesh, but that didn't stop me from seeing the deep wounds I had made.
This was the first time I had hurt a person and seeing that this person was the man I was in love with made me hurt even more. I can remember that night like it was yesterday it was the first time I had never seen my husband look at me in fear.

"Grandpa are you ok!?" asked our Grandson taking a step forward."Johnathan leave and close the door behind you I need to talk to your Grandmother about something". Our eyes never left one another as he talked "Edward Oh my god Edward I'm so sorry I..I don't know what happened I was just putting my hand up to protect myself and I guess the movement made it fly off my hand or my mind did I'm not sure." I had started to cry by now I was so sorry and I he still had a look on his face or fright and curiosity."Elphie what was that you where holding that fire are you mad it could have burned you." " No, Edward you don't understand I was controlling the fire I don't know how I did it, but I just did." I stopped and look into his eyes I saw that he believed me "Elphaba is this new, have you been able to do thing for awhile and just didn't let me?" "Edward no you know I would tell you as soon as I found out that I could doe something new." I stopped talking and lifted my hand up to where the burn had been it was just pink now almost like I had slapped him "Oh Edward I'm sorry" and I flung myself in to his arms and cried.

I can't remember how long we stayed like that it may have only been a few minuets or hours. Thats one thing about never really getting older time starts to slip by you like its nothing.Friends get old and older and die at sometime and you make new friends and the same happens to them. The hardest is the family you lose our sons, our grandsons and granddaughters and their children as well.I wasn't the only one to gain a power Edward also did to when our last two grandson's went to fight in the Civil War. It tore him apart because he was had been so close to them. His new power was just as dangerous as mine had been.It called Telepathy he can get in to the minds of people and look around or talk to them or even cause them pain. His night was much like mine,but he hadn't locked himself in a room. He just sat on the roof of our barn for two days and he said that he could hear me talking even thought I wasn't there, and when I came to get him down was when he found out that he could use this power for harm.

"Edward, please come down from there, I'm scared and you are scaring the servants they thing your going to jump.""Elphaba, I don't give a damn what the servant think I can here you all anyway I know what they are saying." I looked at him in confusion and thought "he knows what they where thinking how is that possible " "Oh it possible my dear it is." "Edward! you just answered my thoughts not my words. " "I KNOW !!!" he yelled this time and not just with his voice,but with his mind as well. The pain was like someone had taken a hot poker and slammed it into my head I remember screaming out in pain and falling to the ground then I knew nothing more.

I had passed out from the pain I woke in Edward's arm he was crying saying he was sorry and that he would never do it again.Those two great grandsons where our last we never had another child after that. Our children had children and they did to but none of them ever where gifted with any kind of powers. Why we don't know we went on and lived our live tell one day our world changed and Edward and I would no longer together,but ripped apart by some evil force.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

The beginning

My name is Elphaba St.James and I am 215 years old. I was born 1773 in England, but when I was just a baby my father moved his family to the America's he settled in Philadelphia.I was a normal kid I rarely got sick, but that was understandable I was the daughter of one of the most prominent doctors in the city. I grew up and when I reached my twenty's disaster hit in the summer of 1793 Yellow Fever hit Philadelphia and started to kill hundreds people, my father was one of the few doctors that stayed to help the dieing. My mother and two brothers were lost to the Fever and it started to claim my father as well.I had stayed in the city because I did not want to leave my fathers side. It was two months in to this horrific epidemic when my father became ill and couldn't do his work and I had to take over for him, but I knew I had to do something to heal him, I tried everything I could think of, but he never got better. It wasn't tell I was about to give up did something happen. Father was having a fitful night and I was trying to make him comfortable because I knew his end was near I was doing what any daughter would have done. I memorizing my fathers face he had been my rock as I grew up and I couldn't bare to lose him. When my hand became still on his forehead and I felt it not the fever that was burning in him but a kind of tingling and I felt the energy leave me and go in to my father and it was then after two days of nothing he finally opened his eyes and look at me and really saw me, and I knew that I had healed him. After realizing what I could do I knew I had to help others. I did, I help as many as I could get my hands on but this all was not with out a cost every time I healed someone I would be come weaker and weaker until I finally passed out. I came back a round and started all over again finally, winter came a the fever died out leaving 50,000 dead. My father realized what I could do, but he made me keep this.. power a secret and to go on with my life as if nothing was different.
I did I meet and fell in love with a man named Edward St.James. We married two years after the fever hit.Edward was a one of a kind man I was drawn to him because he was a doctor like my father,but he had his own powers that I never knew about tell we where married. His healing wasn't quite like mine all I have to do is touch a person and I can heal them, but with Edward he healing powers where in his blood. He was a blood healer. ( I know now that they have a proper name for it like they do for all the powers, I can never bring myself to use that name)when he told me what he could do I was so happy because I didn't have to hide my own powers any more I could live with Edward and heal people when they came along.
A few years pasted and I gave birth to our two twin sons Marcus and Alex they where great children I loved them to death and so did Edward, but there was something wrong with them that neither Edward or I could fix. Neither of our sons had powers and we didn't mind tell they started grow up they got older and older. Edward and I aged as well ,but not like normal people we never looked old. We looked still looked 25 and 21 we where concerned on what to do and the one thing we could think of was to leave our city and to move somewhere new. Our boys where in college when we moved the first time it was a sloppy move we did nothing right and made so many mistakes,but we learned. Edward and I would live in a town for 5 to 6 year at the most before people would start to talk and whisper would start about how young the doctor and his wife looked even though they had two grown sons.
When our boys turned 25 they married and settled in a town called Charleston Edward and I followed but we came as just friends of our two boy so people wouldn't talk and also so we could stay in the area longer. Marcus and Alex started to have kids as well they each had two children Marcus got two darling little girls and Alex got the sons. Oh how happy I was to have children in the family again it was fantastic to see these new children grow . Edward and I thought about having more kids,but we never did we knew someday and our two boys would die and there would be nothing we could do about it. When that day did finally come I lost my mind and but I found something new.